Kameel...

u know, I'm kinda private guy, so I don't really talk about myself,

much,

so I more like to talk about my dearest friends

and all whom are so matter to me!

so this post is about Kameel,

One of my most best friend.

I've known Kameel since we were in Form 1 at

MARA Junior Science College KKB

he was staying at the opposite room from my room

at the dormitory.

And one sweet day during the induction week

in 2002

when we were Form 1

he came bursting off my door

and said, with his hands "flying" around,

"Wey korg, hari nak pakai baju apa?"

And since that fateful day,

we've been bestfriend.

We've had been so close to each other

We've done everything together

I can say that, we've grown up together

We've faced problems together

We've solved em together.

And then, it was SPM.

and Kameel, being the "genius" one of us,

scored 91As.

that is 9 hardcore subjects scored with a perfect A!

I was so happy for him.

I was so glad with him.

I was so glad to call him "my bestfriend"

Coz he is the best after all.

And he went to one of the best public university here in Malaysia

studying one of the toughest course

and having the best offer

that is going abroad to Japan to continue his study

so that one day he could be a better person

so that one day he could uplift his family's condition to a better heights

so that he could contribute for the nation.

And without a doubt, I am glad

I am fucking glad that he succeed.

I would do anything to ensure he will succeed.

But Kameel, this is the truth.

Deep inside my heart,

I don't want u to go,

I miss u so badly I never miss anyone like this

Everytime I had this thought of u going

Thousand miles from KL

I had this feeling

of crying out

of don't wanting u to go

I feel like a lil child

crying out for his dad

when his dad was going out for work

he knew that his dad will come back

but he just couldn't bear with the thought

that he weill be left out for sometime

because to him

that sometime feels like

years.

And you're going for years.